graduation 2012

Where to begin June 01 2012 my youngest daughter is graduating from high school. The youngest of my three kids. She mentioned that this was the last Thursday she would be in high school.  The smile on her face was priceless.  I was sad because I can recall my other 2 kids saying the same thing mom guess what today is .  The same answer what's today and all three kids said the same thing my last Thursday of high school.  The same reaction of wow I'm proud and inside saying wait slow down lets just enjoy the day.
when she walks across the stage and seeing her smile being very proud of my daughter. Knowing that this chapter with her is over.  A New chapter begins college and the new ventures of her life as freshman in college.  I'm glad I can say I'm a veteran as a parent having a college kid as a freshman.  I'm prepared and nothing I hope shall surprise me this time around because I hear the third time is a charm.  She is an amazing young woman with a great heart, determination, and her own voice, I can say she feels good in her own skin at times. Which scares me to death because she is about to encounter her freedom of the world away from home and the new people she shall meet .  Meeting new people and making new friends with no curfew. Then when she writes her first paper and spends hours only to make a C and told not enough passion with the frustration of that feeling that her professor wants more from her .  When she gets to her dorm from a party and its 2 am she still has to write a paper and study.. Then she calls me to say she loves me and wants to hear my voice.  It sounds like I need to get my sleep and rest. I still have one in college who still calls me late at night i should say the wee hours in morning and now my freshman college student this fall.  Grrr I shall be  needing some bot ox asap this fall shall be a challenge. With many happy tears as she walks across the stage.  I'll  be in deep thought asking god hey can we just do senior year one  more time .  Because you see I'm still catching up on my sleep from her being a senior.
Being a parent is priceless you have every high and every low with every sound of laughter and tears.  But the joy and feeling thats embedded in my heart is a true blessing. I'm proud to say I'm a mom a parent and I have been on many ventures with my three kids. Now adult hood I hear that is more of the same. So I was 21 when I became a mom so who needs sleep.

dart 101

Will here it goes I need dart 101 I had to use the bus today to get home after an auto accident .  My car towed away not able to drive at this time.  So our great law enforcement took me to the dart bus.  Thought that should be easy enough get on the bus then I can get home and not have to ask for a ride.  I thought everyone would be so proud of me handling  this on my own will are you ready for this.  First know this realy did happen I' am normal I'm not slow. I do need lessons about taking the bus.  I actually got on the bus that was at the stop but that bus went to Irving Texas.  I was in Dallas Tx I wanted to get to Garland Texas .  I'm in Irving I have to get to the dart transit from there get on a bus back to Dallas .  This took me to down town Dallas but on these buses you stop at every half a block.  So time frame 8 am the police officer dropped me off I then went to Irving by 10 am I'm in Dallas down town I finally get to Garland at 1130 am .  A friend picked me up and took me home to Rowlett I was home by 12 noon.  Today I was in an auto accident then I took a very small vacation via the dart bus.  I saw more of  Irving and Dallas then I ever new.  FYI when taking the dart bus have a map or just ask for help because when your in Irving saying I need to get to Garland you will get some strange looks.  But I did get home because I did one thing used my phone to call a friend who laughed and said why didn't you just call earlier.  Why would you take the bus she reminded me you have family and friends a phone call away and you take dart bus. But guys all that only cost me 4 bucks I had an all day bus pass. Very cheap short vacation via the dart bus.  My crazy day for a  Monday and get this I'm 43 not 6 but I think a 6 year old would have used her phone to call and ask for help.  I hope you guys enjoyed this and found the humor that I wanted to share  now that I'm home.  Safe and sound with no dart bus around. lol

march flew by and now its april

One minute its feb and then march now April all I can say is wow.  March lets see I turned 43 and and I have short hair dark brown again .  I feel more alive and enjoy life more then ever now.  what could it be many things one I m becoming more connected to god.  The other I see my children for the age they are and the journey they have in life I am now aware that as a mom I stand back and watch my kids  letting them know everyday I'm here and there not alone.  I'm working out more now three days to four days week that helps with my energy level. Then the other of course a man go figure a man who I say is wonderful.  With him I feel young and I want to get to know him .  Feels great my wall is down and it feels great so I'm ready to begin this journey lets see where it goes.  We dance  to  tejano music to some Barry white its fun.  I like when get twirled  around and around.   We went to this night spot where this band played Jessie's girl I went up to the stage and sang the song.  He just laughed and I was laughing it felt liberating to laugh at myself but it was fun.  Then getting to know someone and never once thinking of the past that alone has been magic.  When I'm with him I want more of a new experienced.  I'm alive and its wonderful.  that some say I look younger but I say because I have left my past go I'm free from my past.  Now its the future that I live for with me and my kids.  I'm glad to say that I will not be bitter or cry about my past anymore.  because without my past I would not be here, right now living my life.  The scars I have are not opened there healed and its part of my testimony of life.  Finding god and eating and drinking his word has opened me up to like me the new Margie Bucko

old friends what an amazing gift

Odd how time can go by or years 15 years then next thing you know you see person who catches your eye at the store.  That persons face will stay with you then 5 months later you see that same face then wow you remember the face because of the smile.  You say there name they stop you say your name and then for that second all memories come as a flash that entire year or years that you guys were friends. That happened to me her name is Jackie we met when we were in our mid twenties her son on flag football as well as my son Randall. first practice we were friends just like that we hung out our kids did also.  for an entire year cook outs, birthday parties, holidays, church it was great the best moments.  Then you think it wont happen because you did everything together it stops in our case my family moved and then our friendship ended .  But i can say having her in my life at 26 was a great time seeing her again i can recall happy times when we laughed and at the park with our kids they would play and we would talk about everything.  Here we were at the gym she saying the same thing both kids in college divorced and 15 years later we still have things in common. Two kids going to college in Oklahoma her youngest in college in Texas.  My oldest working  living in Texas.. My youngest in high school and I'm divorced.  We still laughed and I still see her as that girl who was 26 from up north that had come to Texas raised her family and it was OK to think out side the box.  She showed me how to use a grill and grill burgers at my sons birthday party when he was five.  We said we would stay in touch I hope we do.  I like that people come in our life at times when we are young and then leave years later they are back and its like they were never gone.  I can say since my divorce My friends that i had as a girl are now back in my life it feels wonderful knowing that there in my life again.  That now we talk and hang out and are back in each others lives.  I have had many changes in my life but I'm so glad to that my old friends are back in my life with my new friends.  FYI the count down to 43 started but with my old friends it does feel as if we stay the same age for just a sec.

finding your old friend

the amazing gift of having nieces and nephews

I have so much joy today because today my niece accepted me as her friend.  Why has it touched my heart  as you guys know I'm divorced i was married for a very long time.  In my marriage i was blessed to be part of a good family.  Brother in- laws that have known me since i was nineteen .  We shared weddings, family gatherings, births of our children, the loss of family, illness,many cook outs, times at the lake and of course holidays.  During these years i have been blessed with many nieces and nephews that i have held in my arms as tiny babies changed there diapers.  I could say i have been in there life i saw them walk, say there first word, when they went to school for the first time. memories after memories of being in there life.  Then divorced the grief and loss of a marriage ending the truth of how the marriage was .  The pain and grief that your children have after the loss of there parents marriage ending .  Then  the entire family  loss and grief of someone they have had in there life, some there entire life are gone.   no good bye just family saying there getting divorced things will be different.  In most families its acting as if that person was never in there life.  But how can that be done when those two people had children there pictures of them as a family and memories that don't leave.  I can say divorce sucks in all counts the ache and pain of having to give up your other family hurts deeply.  Then the hardest is not getting to be around your nieces and nephews.  But today is amazing because again im truly blessed because many of my ex's family even though its face book i'm apart of my nieces and nephews lives.  I missed two years of there lives so many things happened.  What i want to say yes its true blood is thicker then water.  But my ex's brothers and there families have a special place in my heart.  My sister in-laws are amazing women they know me and I'm honored that they think out of the box and allow me to still be in there children's lives via  facebook.  who would think that would also help aunts and uncles be apart of there nieces and nephews lives..  Im blessed to say i have wonderful aunts,uncles ,great aunts, great uncles that via facebook we stay in contact.  These special people have been in my life since i was child my entire life .  I like when i can email a Tia (aunt) and for guidance or a prayer or special story.  The same with my uncles.  I love when my nephew will say hi and says he misses a fav dish.  Today my niece wow  I missed two years of her life and it feels like a life time.  Hug your family often, its better then never, often can change the world. A hug can bring a smile or a fond memory.  Because if you ever have to be apart two years or longer you know there hug and how felt.  I'm 42 I can remember my great grandmothers hugs and smell of love .  My grandparents the same way these people are gone but when i hug my aunt or uncle for sec i feel there hug.  fyi i love my entire family.